is such a soothing balm for the hideousness of the last six or so weeks, the result of which had left me in quite a moribund state.

The tally from mid June has been one sister in and out of hospital, thankfully out completely now; one of our wonderful racing drivers killed in a freak accident at a track in Canada; another of our wonderful racing drivers left with numerous broken ribs, a crushed sternum, a leg broken in two places and a completely written off race car, this incident happened at our own track on our last scheduled race weekend. Thankfully it didn’t rob him of his sense of humour! After that we lost our good friend to organ failure at the tender age of 39; some friends of ours lost one of their friends in a horse riding accident at the age of 41; and I recently learned of an acquaintance who has lost her husband of 1 year at the age of 26. I haven’t known what to do with myself, how to cope with such sadness and how to wake up every morning and just muster the strength to get out of bed and face another day.

The events of the last six weeks have made me put my life completely in perspective… to not take things for granted, to be grateful for the small occurances each day, to keep a smile on my face and say hello to perfect strangers, to avoid conflict as much as possible and to learn to be more forgiving. The biggest thing though has been a very stark realisation that this is my life, it’s happening now, and to stop thinking and planning so much for the future, because quite frankly, while I’m focusing on the future, I’m missing out on the present. And the reason they call it the present is because life is a gift and we need to take the time to enjoy it.

Like spending time with those giggling, mischievous, fun loving children….. On the 18th of this month, A and I joined some friends and their children at our local Metropark (Kensington) for a night of “Harmony in the Metropark”, a series of free outdoor concerts with the Detroit Symphony Orchestra, so along with about 2000 other people, we spread our blankets on the ground, set out our picnic and had ourselves a fantastic, if sticky and humid, evening! Good food, good wine, great company, giggling, dancing children, and fantastic classical music. But not the bland, 30 minute when is this torture going to end kind of classical music, but more the oh I love this toe tapping, feel good, clap along piece! And the DSO with their wonderful, fun loving, spontaneous and warm hearted conductor, Thomas Wilkins, were in top form. Well, what else would you expect from a world class symphony orchestra? Add to the fact that the concert series is FREE, and you can understand why upwards of 2000 people turn up year after year.

But back to those kids… we had dancing kids, we had marching kids, we had giggling kids, we had laugh until you almost wet yourself kids, oh wait no! That was the adults!! It was a great night, and I needed that night so badly. I never realised how badly.

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